Hard to say goodBye....i guess...

10th September 2004

u know u're thinking too much when out of noWhere u cried of yesterday...

that's what happend to me...yesterday (nite)...
i was doin some work..when i came across some old pictures..
n thought about this particular frend...
it was him ....the can't-live-withOut Frend

he's got his life now...n found another Me....
n i'm suppose to deal with the shit that happends...
n i am....

n i hate the things he did to me...
n the way he broke my heart..
n how painful it is thinkin on the things he said...he promised..
n the idea that i held on to those words..
tryin my best to believe it was..
for once...
R E A L
when every idiot knows...
BullS**** sometimes sounds so sweet....
n so pure......

its just.....
at every moment we try our best to forget...
we can't help it... when it comes back...
to haunt us...remind us... refresh us
of things...words..events..moments
and oh how i wish i was there...
back when everything felt so...
R E A L

but i cannot tell myself to forget
that he found another me...
and that shits happend...
n that i must move on...run for cover...hide...
whatever it takes

to say goodBye...
cause i guess its true what myX once told me...
i'm impossible to love...
because its hard for me to say goodBye
i guess.....

Cheers!

10.05am

Gettin all the Warmth I need ( " , ).......

8 September 2004

last nite was simply a BLAST!...(no...no...nothing horny here...shut up ChineseBro...hehe)

i hangedOut wit innocentBeauty, ShyGuy and CineseBro...
3 odd/unique/wayDifferent- than-me people...
all enjoying one thing in common.....LIFE
(oh yes over slices n slices of pizza n garlic bread).....

so yes we will have hard times coming our way...

shy guy is still tryin his best to be a lawyer n noOne does it better than us BullS*****s
ChineseBro will keep on Droolin on those fine/firm ass comin down the street...(kahkahakhakakh)
and InnocentBeauty goin "aaaah....how sweet..." at things people do to find L O V E ...(heheheeh..)
n for me... i'm just taking it all in n making it a picturePerfect in my heart...(aaah...how sweet...)

n yes we can't stop laughing on yesterdays joke..
no matter how many times it was repeated...
or cannot believe the fact that anytime sooner i gotta change shyGuy's name cause it doesn't seem to fit him anymore...(heheheheh)....

the whole scenery of me n my frends..just enjoying simpleLaughs...
i can't help but be happy ...n thankful...
that out of all the shits n shatters of this life...or in myLife for that matter...
i can still look around n find all the warmth i need to make it thru the day...
or better still..
to make it thru my life

so...
here's to the nite. budds

Cheers!

9.45 am

Decent Boi Vs Notty Boi

6 September 2004

since the heart dept closed...
this crap of curry been looking into other areas to make her horny...(i mean happy)...
this past few weeks been a bit of a crazyLand here in CrappyCurry life...
n so i come across two BOyS....
(so help me god!....)

decent boi
aka mySaviour i talked about earlier
u know the one not ready for relationship...blablabla..guy
well...recently been spending quite some time wit him...

always late...makes it up for it...makes me laugh...makes my day....

and then tells me he loves me like a lil sister he never had ...(typical)...
chinese bro told me to ignore this dick...i mean guy...boi.....what the hell....
cause believe it or not...
i feel like the safetyNet he wants to have all the time...

tho he does call everynite...
n sings to me...n spends more time with me than my last X....aaaaah
(focus curry focus!!!!!)..

HE STILL HASN"T GONE OVER FUCKIN_BLIND....REMEMBER?

notty boi
this ones new...Verry new...oh yeah baby...
one thing about him that turns me on... is his VOICE!!!!
husky n horny..i'm tellin ya....
i even caught my self M@*#^%@*%($& while listening to him

been calling n sms'ing lateLy...
n i met him lastNite....
n before i slept ...
out of noWhere...he made this statement
(yes chineseBro...just like u're FAKING_IT frend...hahahah)

" i'm not into just one relationship..i don't like to focus... its tiring...neways....u fancy doin a BL&*^*% thru the phone?"

i should feel offended right?...cheap?...fuckin bastard askin me to help him wit his fantasy....

but i didn't get offended....
in fact....i gave him more than just a BL&*$^&...n it wasn't ONLY just him gettin lucky....

Mmmmmmmmmm......

(what happends next people....is for u to find out n only me to know.....( " , )

Cheers!

1.05 pm